....me....

fucking cunt

Mon, 21 Feb 2005 15:50:51 GMT

i fucking hate dumb ass whores
talk shit and cant back it up
anytime anywhere bitch give me a call and ill be there
FUCK YOU

Mon, 18 Oct 2004 21:09:23 GMT

As I look into your face
On the days I'd been bad
I see a look that bekons me
Its tired, and hurt, and sad

The spark I use to see behind those glowing eyes
Is ever growing with hate and despise

That day...
I saw my reflection of me in your eyes
I was sobbing and curled up in a ball,
you'd taken away every security I had
I whispered to myself "It'll get better, I swear, He just needs to change..."

I was wrong
OH so wrong
When you put that last bruise on my body
was the day I finally left

To this day I told no one of the theft of my bruised heart....

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Thu, 12 Aug 2004 03:38:44 GMT

ok heres the deal...i need some advice.

my friend i wont mention names well she called me and told me that her close friend just recently got addicted to crack and she needs any local numbers she can get for her and her friend or any treatment centers she can go to so if you can give me any for az...i have some already but i could use more you never no

thanks <3

sdfsdg

Sat, 22 May 2004 07:16:26 GMT

it wasnt so bad.
i was proud
i cried.
only when he hugged me
my dad was there.
he huged me....
yeah
sonic was good.

here are pics to remember:

sick

Tue, 06 Apr 2004 18:34:44 GMT

I woke up @ like 5 ish and my body was like DIEING my allergies have finally caught up to me. i can barely talk and it hurts when i do. when ever i blow my nose it just makes me more congested *sigh* i hate allergies. i want them to go away. i also have a bounding headache! ahhhh

i took a hot bath it helped...very little. but yea. i took medication its not doing shit for me.

well i gonna go now, bye

sdgdfg

Tue, 06 Apr 2004 05:08:16 GMT

school...blah.
went to stephs.
hung out.
listened to 80's music.
went home.
got online.

i just thinking alot and yeah i gonan KINDA vent bout it...

First of all i want to say that sometimes at night when ur siting there n ur room and u run thru all the horrible things n ur life and then u cry or maybe think thoughts u shudnt or do things u shudnt then u cry but have u ever actually sat there in the horrible darkness and thought of all the things ur thankful for or maybe the things u wish cud be idk postive things back when i wasnt so ...blah...i use to do that not so much any more. and i miss thouse thoughts. lately my thoughts have been about my sisters just wondering if that wud change my life at all. i mean yah ur siblings have a impact in ur life and all but i just wonder if my life ud be "better" or "worse" idk...thats just yeah some shit...
today stephanie says that i let alot of ppl step on me and i hardly ever step up for myself. thats a thing that i hate about myself, i wish that when ppl wud say fucked up shit no matter if it is true or not that i still say shut up or not uh or something but no. i usually agree or encourage them idk. i mean i guess i cant say shit cuz i no being the person i am im not willing to TRY and change cuz yeah...yeah. my mom calls the pschologist tommorwo "assia" is her name i guess....w/e

f.u.c.k. t.h.i.s.

fsdgsdfg

Mon, 05 Apr 2004 21:38:40 GMT

Your Monday horoscope, Pisces!
You see possible passion today. An attraction is very apparent, and your desire to pursue partnership is quite intense. Look to be discreet.

Pisces February 19 - March 20
A little thing could blow up into a big argument between you and your sweetie. Don't throw it away on something unimportant -- take some time apart and talk about it when you've both come to your senses.

thats what my horoscope(s) say

yeah today was ehhh okay

confrence hour-talked to pg some.
english- i fell asleep and gave teacher attitude for making me sit up
german-i felt sick to my stomach thought i was going to throw up
lunch-talked to tami n pg made a list of songs to be burnt.
safety ed- we talked about sex n stuff. it was cool...watched a movie.

i going to hate tommroorw i hate going into math, but oh well. i think i am on his "good" side again.

BLAH X 3895349859034863

Mon, 05 Apr 2004 04:15:13 GMT

I'll never forget this weekend...

yeah

fuck.

last nite

Sat, 03 Apr 2004 18:59:57 GMT

Talked to tami online then she came over for awhile. she saw my room w/ the lights on it heh. i called my mom earlier she ...didnt reply the way i thought n e ways went to pgs n we just hung out for everrrrrrrrrrr around 9:45 ish mike came over to get his movie (texas chainsaw massacre) yeah i went home shortly after it was pretty good nite. Anyways today i woke up put on my away took a shower that movie got me on my toes still i can just see him bust into my house w/ a chainsaw *shiver* yah...thats basicaly it.bye

Thu, 01 Apr 2004 22:31:31 GMT

yup...tami wasnt at school and wont be tommrowo either but she wants to hang out after school tommroow. anyways.
didnt do shit for confrence hour.
1st hour was dance we did sit ups it was awesome. we did across the floor jazz stuff. uhm...we learned a combo. passed wkshts back.

science talked to andria she said she was gonna ditch 5th hour to go c her bf. uhm it was boring we did a lab. gay. airplanes oh what fun.

lunch sat around usual...i guess.

math sat n the bak copied pattys paper boring day.

yup....

fixed my hair looks better than it did earlier what a surprise.

<3

Thu, 01 Apr 2004 05:39:20 GMT

i hung out w/ steph. her bro was cool. i typed up his thing for him cuz he said i can "type fast" what ever. i teased him about how i hear things about him being a pimp haha! anyways, steph n i talked bout 80's shit it was awesome. :-D then she busted out a KISS shirt and gave it to me! me! she gave it to me. so yeah tommorow i wearing a kiss shirt :-D ayayayayaya

yup then pg n mike came wich was cool. i went to change n i thought my mom said something so i opened the door which hit mikes elbow which made him realease the soda which spilled which my mom made me clean which i laughed thru the entire thing :) i am such a bitch. and accourding to will a obessed rat

fun fun

Wed, 31 Mar 2004 21:49:01 GMT

Hallo. Guten tag. Wie gehts du? ich bin so so. Ich geht es schul heute.

Yeah sorry about that ask me in person if you really care.
School *sigh* i woke up @ 5:30 for no fucking aparent reason. It was crazy so i sorta dozed on and off till about 6:29 then I just shut off my alarm n got ready. Tried to wake up my little brother cuz he wanted to be woken up but he didnt get up (what a surprise) so anyways. i get my clothes on. Go down stairs fix my hair so it at least looks DECENT. then i go to the kitchen and eat a apple turn over and have some chocolate milk. I head to the bus stop. Talk to patty and leslie some. then it turns out my little brother told some embaressing shit that he told me he wudnt tell to n e 1 but he did to stephanie. it was awkward. got to school. they took away our bench so everyone just sat around. lalala. boring. bell rang. amy n i go to dance. we dont have to dress out thank god. we watch our showings ( i good at being clumsy ) Yeah, then went to english thought i fall asleep till bout the end. when the gurls heidi n dyana were talking bout their sexuality. it as uhhh intersting.so then off to science where i tease andria by walking funny haha. then to german *shiver* soo glad i wont be in there next year. ( if i graduate to go on )anyways. so yeah. we played a game and i lost oh well ( what a surprise ) then go 2 lunch. just got a soda and chatted w/ ppl. usual.
then headed to math *bigger sigh* sellaro gave no home work thank god. and i was sooooo out of it i was like durh durh 2+2 =476547894 ( i love how dumb i am ) so then...we had some free time i guess. then off to safety ed. he just talked bout robots and how he use to teach and how he was in the orange bowl and yada yada yada usually i listen n care but i was too fucking sick and tired of some shit to do that. wow. thats pretty fucked up of me. yeah well i gonna go now. . . . bye bye

Wed, 31 Mar 2004 00:12:44 GMT

TAMI IS HOME ...shes sick thou :( YAY! not bout the sick part. WOOOT WOOT!

a to the b to the C

Tue, 30 Mar 2004 05:46:11 GMT

mike came.
messed w/ comp.
slight argument.
went to taco bell.
it was nice just siting there talking. . . yeah i liked it.
went drive around some ended bak @ my house. didnt go in.
went to amy's house. amy @ tylers.
went to tylers. amy, tyler, mike 2 were there.
hung out.
watched some cartoons.
amy n i joked bout "whipping guys" heh.
went home. sat by the house in the car.
messed around DIDNT DO ANYTHING I SWEAR!!! lol.
went inside after mom called for a reminder. lol.

<3 bye bye

Mon, 29 Mar 2004 18:40:33 GMT

Woke up. Will hadnt turned off the light pissed me off. I got up and turned that off. Now i checked my mail listening to atticus and watching "ricki lake"
My ear is all itchy, urgh.

b.l.a.h

movie

Mon, 29 Mar 2004 07:37:42 GMT

I was watching this movie about how a girl finds out that shes "gay" or "lesbo" or what ever you want to call it. And it shows her life story. How she goes thru all this pain with the first break up of the girl that she first experience with. Then her mom cant except it. And her dads try to help and the mom just tells him to shut up. the councelor at the school is gay and the mom finds out and gets pissed and warns the councelor. I dont know how people can be so harsh on other people. it made me sad just to think about it i mean i'll never no how people feel because I am straight but i feel horrible for thouse who find out the inner them and are teased and looked down upon it because how they feel. its horrible how society sees some things. makes me wonder.

any one want to comment with their oppinions on the matter go for it. . .

sgfsgjdfhgk WAHHH!

Mon, 29 Mar 2004 05:59:29 GMT

uhhh i woke up n mike was n my room scared the fuck out of me we had a talk he isnt doing that again he got the point that i wasnt too happy about that. anyways. just hung out most the day then we went to pgs n hung out thats basically it byebye

Sun, 28 Mar 2004 03:11:13 GMT

I think I going to write some poetry.

Open my eyes and what do i see.
Much pain and misery.
I watch as the day goes on
And see the issues contained in society
I ponder to myself
When will appearance be drowned out
and people will see the inside

ehhh too lazy to finish plus it sucks

yeah anyways bros party, everyone FINALLY got there act togetther headed down there i was pretty anti-social to every one text mike couple times uhm my mom got all pissy for awhile she was like {"who was here today!?") and i as like ("me, will, julian, mike...") and she was like ("well that money was there when i left and it shud still be there") so basically she was saying some one stole it whatever FUCK IT.

it turns out it was right by the bread maker idk how it got there but it did.

what ever

Sat, 27 Mar 2004 19:47:57 GMT

today i think i shud memorize this date. yup. . .

bye bye

Fri, 26 Mar 2004 05:29:29 GMT

so o o o o o

went n got stuff for the vaccumn that took forever got a new thong. . . uhhhh yeah

then i went to pgs mike came n got me. he geled his hair it was hott

sdgfg

Thu, 25 Mar 2004 05:05:14 GMT

mike n i hung out . . . lol

went to mcdonalds cuz he was hungry i guess lol.

then we went 2 pgs

called tami she didnt pick up thats okay thou i know she loves me *cough*

fsdgdf

Wed, 24 Mar 2004 22:07:44 GMT

grrr. So my moms phone goes off. *makes fake sound effects* So i pick up and say "hello?" and Michael (this guy my mom likes works @ her work place) says "Hi, is your mom there?" and i said "yes, hold on" I take the cell phone with me and i am heading out the door so i look @ my mom and start saying "Oh romeo Oh romeo where art thou romeo" (yes i know its not the EXACT quote i dont give a fuck) and she just looks @ me confused and I hand her the phone and walk away. I get bak on the computer and send my email to my cuzin. She comes in and say "I CANT BELIEVE YOU DID THAT HE HEARD YOU!!!" and gets all pissy gawd. and then she kept smacking me upside the head. saying now shes going to embaress me. i didnt even think it was that bad jebus. i told her i was like "mom, dude your acting like a teenager stop. its not a big deal." and she just kept hitting me upside the head in a pist off way not a joking way PISSY. then she was like "you are a bitch" and kept rambling on. jeesh.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~~*
sometimes i wonder
why i keep waking up
sometimes i wonder
why i am still in this house
sometimes i wonder
why i have feelings that hurt so much
sometimes i wonder
why i dont just die

wow. . . .

Wed, 24 Mar 2004 18:37:57 GMT

i just feel so blah right now.

My mom got me spongebob bottoms (pjs) as if i dont have n e
*fake laugh*

soo o o oo o

Nothing really new here, prob start my laundry since well i havent done it and i need to. double g rrrrrrrrrrr

Wed, 24 Mar 2004 10:28:10 GMT

i was outside w/ aaron and david from 1-3 ish and i got tired of it ...blah...

called tami talked for ehh 10min she sounds like shes having a good time so i am happy for her :)

Uhm yeah. idk i am feeling blah right now, i am about to get sleepy so maybe i shud hit the bed.

<3

yawn

Tue, 23 Mar 2004 22:37:34 GMT

woke up late. mom was setting up the comp. we took the one apart did alot of shit thats what i did mostly all day was computer stuff. . . my mom wud die w/o me she so clueless sometimes lol yea. paige called me she wanted me to go with her to get her ears pierced again i cudnt mommy was being mean n said no she wanted me to do this n that to her computer so yeah. talked to stephanie and andria some then called stephanie bak as i set up the comp upstairs. i hoping that i can get mike to re-format it for me cuz it sucks a S.O.B i lost all my pictures on my camera GAY GAY GAY! oh well i'll live i guess . . .

bye bye

I want to remember to call tami tonite after 9